Clinging to life... And he was gone!!

2008-02-26T16:36:00.002+08:00

My Feel-Good Song of the Moment.

Sara Bareilles Lyrics

2008-02-17T19:08:00.001+08:00

May will be a great month for me... hopefully.

2008-02-15T10:25:00.001+08:00

This song kills.

NO AIR by Jordan Sparks and Chris Brown

2008-02-05T16:34:00.000+08:00

Great Link

Click HERE

2008-01-13T12:18:00.000+08:00

Late night coff... early morning coffee.

Great Friends.

And a hell of a lot to gossi... talk about.

It was just what I/We needed.

2008-01-07T16:07:00.000+08:00

Nice song. Weird but catchy.

Not for anything else, its the reason why I always go back... so I tell myself.

2007-12-28T21:02:00.000+08:00

I have little money saved for Christmast this year... I'm thinking of creative ways/things to give as presents that would mean something and at the same time would not make me look cheap.

Went to Greenhills by myself today... t'was a stupid idea. I got lost more times than when I knew exactly where I was. But at least I lasted a few hours, a couple of hours longer than when I went to SM north edsa alone the day before Christmas eve. I lasted exactly 60 minutes...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

2007-12-20T13:12:00.000+08:00

I attended a wedding two weeks ago. The bride is a close friend of mine. I won't go into detail on what happened before, during, and after the wedding. Lets just put it this way, the wedding itself was one of the most emotional weddings I've ever seen. And the reception, one word: Extravagant.

Come to think of it... I've never been to a masquerade ball.

See more pics HERE
See Video HERE

I'll try to add more pics as soon as HERA (yeah you) uploads some.

2007-12-20T11:49:00.000+08:00

In the tradition of taking holidays too seriously, our Town House is currently having its annual 'Christmas Decoration Competition.' Basically to those who are eager to compete, its one way of saying: "I am Rich!"

See more pics HERE

2007-12-20T11:41:00.000+08:00

I'll End this post with this Video

I miss you!

2007-12-15T08:13:00.000+08:00

Ang hirap pag sobrang sama ng loob mo tpos you can't direct it to a partucular person because it would be unfair.

It just scatters around.

Although its xmas, I think its time be selfish again...

2007-12-14T19:44:00.000+08:00

This is not the actual music video... But I actually prefer it!!

2007-11-29T17:42:00.000+08:00

This was in my drafts since Nov. 20

A Couple of years ago, a good friend of mine complained about a note. "Yun na yun!" My friends exclaimed. It was a small note signed by a group of friends.

I never really understood the frustration my friend had.

Fast forward Nov 2007....

Now I do.

The smallest expectations, create the biggest dissapointment.

2007-11-19T12:08:00.000+08:00

I've been trying really hard... But November has not been nice to me.

And, By the way,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to ME!

11 hours and 35 minutes till its all over...

2007-10-29T09:54:00.000+08:00

Random Thoughts

SD and I went to Greenhills two nights ago. I wasn't really that thrilled to go to Greenhills on a Saturday night, of a long weekend, at the end of the month, and with Halloween just around the corner. But I still had to finish my "errands." Unexpectedly, traffic going there was bearable, but traffic inside Greenhill was just plain horrible. It took us probably more than 30 minutes to work our way and actually find a decent parking. And to add insult to injury, I was there to look at furnitures (yes, to me buying furnitures is an errand), to my surprise almost all the stalls selling furnitures were closed! And the few stores that were open, was in the process of closing up. I wasn't even able to check prices because the furnitures were all covered in "plastic banig." And did I mention that we almost got lost inside Greenhills? Almost... I mean I couldn't remember where virramall or shoppesville were, or if they still exist because its been a year since I've been inside greenhills, and it was longer for SD, so we ended up going to information a couple of times to ask for directions.

My lesson learned: Go to Greenhills early and possibly on a weekday.

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Our Townhouse takes Halloween all too seriously. Three weeks ago, we received a letter stating that our Town House would be celebrating Halloween with its annual costume part followed by a house to house "Trick or Treat." Well, being the semi-involved, moderately concerned member or this town house (count how many times I mention Townhouse), I put a little decoration bought a big-bowls worth of chocolates and candies for the event, completely oblivious on what to expect.

So the day arrived, I was surprised to see that most of our neighbors really went all out when it came to decorating their houses. Some of them had real pumpkin heads beside their gates, some had scarecrows hanging in their windows. I really mean, they really went all out. (will try to get pics). All we had was a Small banner saying "Happy Halloween." At about 6:30 pm people started gathering at the basketball court. And again, being the semi-involved moderately concerned member I was, I, together with my sister went to the court to see what was happening and what the big deal was. To my horror, there were about a hundred children (give or take) dressed up in costumes, itching to go trick or treating.

To be continued

2007-10-25T12:28:00.000+08:00

I need something to look forward to... Normally, I'd plan out things/events to make myself get excited and stuff, but since last tuesday night, I can't come up with any.

2007-10-22T23:13:00.000+08:00

Random Thoughts

Sometimes, its so funny when hints are spelled in big bold letters and I would still miss it. And at the end of the day, I would have to learn things the hard way.

I don't humiliate people... I just laugh/smile at them afterwards.

It takes alot to make me tick, but hearing that word ruins my day. Sadly, today was one of those days. I should be used to it by now... I mean come on, every freakin time? But then again, its me. (Go back and read my first thought)

Some people don't know how to compromise... Its really frustrating.

I'm sleepy..

2007-10-21T08:50:00.000+08:00

Also can't get enough of this song. Apologize by Timbaland.

2007-10-18T08:16:00.000+08:00

Can't get enough of this song. Back In to You by Amber Davis.

2007-10-14T08:58:00.000+08:00

Random Thoughts

The other day I went out and met up with Leah, a former officemate from Sykes. Had fun. watched Stardust, which was ummmm... boring to say the least. It was weird because the movie had big names in it, like Claire Danes, Michelle pfeiffer, Robert De Niro, etc... But it just failed to deliver. Kinda reminded me of "Shark Tale."

I had a verbal spat with my Lola yesterday. It was really frustrating because it was regarding money. And if there was something I hate talking about with relatives, it would be money. Just to sum it up, I/we lost 10k because of improper budgeting.

My TV is still busted. (kainis lang)

I still haven't bought an electric fan. I saw our electric bill, and believe we need one ASAP. Maybe this tuesday or wednesday.

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2007-10-12T10:34:00.000+08:00

Two is a couple, Three is a crowd, Four is a ____? Five is a big NO!

*A thought came into my head* Hmmm.. Nah!! Haha...

2007-10-09T07:46:00.000+08:00

Once a month I have my hair cut.

Once a month I buy groceries.

Once a month I watch a movie.

Once a month I clean my room.

Once a month.

2007-10-08T11:48:00.000+08:00

Melissa, my youngest sister finally explained to me what "EMO" means. I had an idea, but you know, nobody would know it better than high-school students. And the she commented that the skins below looked very "EMO". So, I'm not gonna use it anymore.

EMO... not me!

My Shout box is F@cked up!

2007-10-06T11:24:00.000+08:00

been trying to make a new skin for my blog... its hard work. Anyway, here's are the skins I've been working on.

And yes, it is PINK... and that's a skull. (its not yet finished).

Here's another one I've been working on.

Which is better? I'm thinking of making something green...

2007-09-29T20:41:00.000+08:00

I was listening to The Corrs old albums the whole day. I was surprised to find out that I've memorized many of their songs. I've been a fan eversince their "Runaway" days. Can't get enough on Andrea and "Only When I Sleep."

2007-09-25T07:32:00.000+08:00

Shit, I'm really bored! Wanna do a lot of things... watch a movie, buy stuff, eat out, etc...

Watched the game last sunday, we lost to ateneo. Sad. Had the worst "food day." I was somewhat forcing myself to eat cuz I knew it was expensive. The food we ate was NOT worth the money we paid for.

Before, I did not believe in BURNOUT. So I never knew I was experiencing it.

In life, you rarely get what you want, but you have less of a chance of getting what you want when you don't fight for it. So this is me fighting. Unfortunately, losing.

2007-09-22T09:49:00.000+08:00

Its no secret that I HATE SURPRISES. So as much as possible, I try to get a hold on things and decide for myself. But lately I've learned that no matter how hard I try, SOME DECISIONS MAKE THEMSELVES.

2007-08-05T21:51:00.000+08:00

July was HORRIBLE!!!!

Its been a long while since I posted anything or actually went on-line for reasons that has nothing to do with work. Checked my Mail 1510 unread mail, wow a new record for me. most of them are xtube and friendster spams. I revisisted most of my classmates blog... reminisced and laughed. And btw, I actually browsed a few profiles on friendster. I actually wanted to grab a few photos, but I thought "malalaman kya nila? kahiya, hwag na lang..." And the site was really slow, don't know why. So I took it as a hint, and in the end I didn't grab anything.

Anyway, although I'm still technically employed, I'm still actively yet discreetly searching for a new job. A High-paying, Higher rank, a company to be proud of ---Job. I probably won't find one. Can you say BUM? haha..

Another Ooops moment!

While in a Jollibee drive-thru:

Me: Isang number... and isang number... Go large! etc
Girl in the Window: Okay sir your bill is... next window na lang po.
Me: Ay miss! FOR TAKE OUT NGA PALA YAN!
Girl in the Window: Ah OK sir... next window na lang po. *faint smile*

True to my very timid thought process, I realized that of course it was for take out, I'm on the freakin DRIVE THRU. I swear, I really thought I saw her her Thought-bubble saying: Tanga! nasa drive thru ka nga eh.

Nga naman...

2007-06-30T10:39:00.001+08:00

I take a cab on my way to work. Yesterday morning, as I entered the cab, I said: "Manong, sa UST po." 5 seconds later I realized I said the wrong thing. Then I took it back and said: "Manong sa PeopleSupport po pala, sa Ayala Ave."

Regression?

2007-05-17T20:07:00.000+08:00

I'm tired and frustrated. I need a break.

BTW, Spiderman 3 was ummm... long! The special effects made up for the bad acting and bad plot.

Miss you... all of you.

2007-04-30T06:45:00.000+08:00

I hate april! Good thing it's all over.

2007-03-19T13:33:00.000+08:00

FEB was hell... MARCH is sooooooooooo much better. Can't wait for MAY!

BUSY... BUSY... BUSY...

2007-02-01T17:33:00.000+08:00

Ang lamig lately... brrrr

2007-01-30T10:35:00.000+08:00

I had a weird dream... it was so clear and vivid! it was like I was inside a flatscreen TV.

2006-12-18T10:12:00.000+08:00

Finally watched HAPPY FEET... T'was relaxing and funny, it was not meant for kids. Can't wait for SHREK 3.

2006-11-27T11:27:00.000+08:00

Have you made a conscious decision, and a second later, regret it? Seem to be happening to me a lot lately.

2006-10-27T08:53:00.000+08:00

Random Thoughts
-I was watching Animal Planet last night, I saw a group of baby hippos. They looked cute.
-I have an old Love Pillow. Its so worn out and dirty, I can barely hug it anymore, but I cant seem to throw it away.
-Paris Hilton is HOT.
-I need to start reading books again, I feel like I'm dumbing down.
-Cleared out my phone inbox and contact list. It was hard.
-I need a job, but I'm starting to like the fact that I'm not doing anything.

2006-10-16T13:53:00.000+08:00

Confessions of a DRUG ADDICT.

Pain, it comes in all forms. The small twinge, a bit of soreness, the random pain that we live with everyday. Then there is the kind of pain you just can't ignore, a level of pain so great that it blocks out everything else, makes the rest of your world fade away until all we can think about is how much we hurt, how we manage our pain is up to us. Pain we anthetisize, ride it out, embrace it, ignore it, and for some of us the best way to manage pain is to just push through it.

Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its on, and hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers. You just breath deep and wait for it subside. Most of the time pain can be managed, but sometimes the pain gets you when you least expect it, hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it, and life always makes more.

2006-09-11T10:42:00.000+08:00

Wla akong ma-post...

Dami kong inisip, cant really put them into writing...

Gusto ko na magka-trabaho ulet.

ummmm... whatelse? Need to get my license. Can't drive with a Students permit anymore, natatakot akong mahuli at makulong.

Panalo UST sa cheerdance... di ko inexpect, kse kala ko Adamson ang mananalo. well di naman ako expert sa sayaw, so I think they saw something na di ko nakita.

Gusto ko manood ng sine... khit ano na. Sobrang bored nko!

2006-08-28T17:32:00.000+08:00

this past week... ang taas ng adrenalin ko! dunno why. I cant even sleep properly!

hay... need to find a new job nauubos na ipon ko!

2006-07-08T14:15:00.000+08:00

MY WORK!

I work for SYKES asia, the pioneer call center company in the philippines. Sounds scripted? It is, its what I keep repeating to people who are about to take their exams. Hay... working is hard! But just like studying, you have to look for the smallest things that will make your work tolerable and fun. Together with LEAH, another new employee (we started at the same week), most of the pics are many of my/our "FIRSTS".

The VIEW from the 19th floor

My first OPEN HOUSE!

My first JOB FAIR!

Delivering POSTCARDS

My first CSR recruitment day

My NEO Training!

My Work Station!

My first "Recruitment Day"

2006-06-24T12:36:00.000+08:00

Hirap ng trabaho...

4 days palng, puro OT...

naicipan ko nang mag-resign, pero tignan natin!

I miss going to school... Or specifically my BAON!

2006-06-15T20:03:00.000+08:00

I'm tired! Daming interview... araw-araw nlang!

Sna matanggap nko sa SYKES!

2006-06-10T10:56:00.000+08:00

Ok tagalog muna ako ngayon...

Nagtxt si Ghala two weeks ago na may opening daw sa comapny na pinagtratrabahuhan (haba ng word) nya for a male recruitment assistant! So niyaya ko si JELO para mag-apply. Sobrang d ako prepared, wala pa nga ako resume eh. Anyways, ayun, nung wednesday pumunta kmi sa company (E-PACIFIC something...) nakita namin dun si JOEL, kakatapos palng nyang interviewhin (word). We meet up with GHALA, tpos ininterview rin kmi. pinabalik kmi after lunch para mag-online application daw (di ko alam kung ano un) bsta... un! tpos pinabalik kmi ni joel kinabukas for the final interview!

Pag alis namin dun, nakita namin si JACQ, nasa labas ng builiding (BTW, sa ortigas pala kmi). Andun sya, nakatyo, nagttext! So ayun... nagdecide kmi apat (ako, jelo, joel, and jacq) na mag-apply sa medical city kse may opening daw dun for HR assistant! (note to readers: ayoko magtrabaho dun). Anyways, we met up with ARRIANE. Nkita and naamoy ko ulet ang Medical City... hay walang pagbabago. Un tpos naghiwahiwalay na kmi nila joel and jacq. So pumunta kmi ni jelo sa SYKES asia... para maging walk-in applicant. Ayun, after wating for an hour and a half, ininterview kmi ni jelo together with 3 other strangers... Confidence booster kse walang kwenta ung mga ksabay namin. Tpos after nun, hinitay namin si LELE tpos pumunta kmi megamall tas nanood kmi ng Benchwarmers and had dinner.

wait.. ang haba na! madami pang nagyari... next time nalang!

2006-06-06T22:29:00.000+08:00

He chose to walk alone.
Though others wondered why.
Refused to look before him,
Kept eyes cast upwards,
Towards the sky.

He didn't have companions.
No need for earthly things.
Only wanted freedom,
From what he felt were puppet strings.

He longed to be a bird.
That he might fly away.
He pitied every blade of grass
For planted they would stay.

He longed to be a flame.
That brightly danced alone.
Felt jealous of the steam
That made the air its only home.

Some say he wished too hard.
Some say he wished too long.
But we awoke one autumn day
To find that he was gone.

The trees, they say, stood witness.
The sky refused to tell.
But someone who had seen it
Said the story played out well.

He spread his arms out wide.
Breathed in the break of dawn.
He just let go of all he held...

And then he was gone.

...

2006-06-05T14:05:00.000+08:00

Here I am, lost in the light of the moon that comes through my window Bathed in blue, the walls of my memory divide the thorns from the roses It's you and the roses

excerpt from AFTERGLOW by INXS

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I'm afraid...
Cuz I'm sure...
Its inevitable that...
hay...

2006-06-02T10:18:00.000+08:00

So I've decided not to go to MED school... and it was a hard decision for me, cuz now I'm left with the question: "Now what?... a Job?" Probably... I'm really not prepared for anything.

I need some exercise...

2006-05-13T22:26:00.000+08:00

Either there is something wrong with my tracker, or someone I know is in Singapore... hmmm... a former classmate perhaps!

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Saw the commercial for CHUPA CHUPS... It really got me laughing! their slogan: "CHUPA CHUPS... The pleasure of sucking" (I'm not joking)

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ONE WEEK... hay!

2006-05-08T09:57:00.000+08:00

Alone
Heart

I hear the ticking of the clock
I'm lying here the room's pitch dark
I wonder where you are tonight
No answer on the telephone
And the night goes by so very slow
Oh I hope that it won't end though
Alone
Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone

You don't know how long I have wanted
to touch your lips and hold you tight, oh
You don't know how long I have waited
and I was going to tell you tonight
But the secret is still my own
and my love for you is still unknown
Alone
Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you aloneHow do I get you alone
How do I get you alone

Alone, alone

2006-05-05T09:52:00.000+08:00

Sometimes a moment settles and hovers and remains for much more than a moment. And sound stopped and movement stopped for much, much more than a moment.

And then the moment was gone.

Now I wish that moment would happen again.

2006-04-27T09:49:00.000+08:00

...Yesterday...

6 months ago I was in UST (council office) doing our thesis... Take note sem break nun!

One year ago, I was taking BIOCHEM (lec) with a lot of you guys, and ETAR as my summer class and I was having my practicum at medical city.

Two years ago, I was taking ORGCHEM (lab and lec) with tiff and laura, as my summer class.

Three years ago, I was with my HS barkada practicing for Hera's debut.

Four years ago, I was with Grace and Bettina enrolling for our freshmen year in UST.

Five years ago, ummmm... D ko na maalala ginwa ko!

Looking back, I'm very proud of what I've accomplished. I'm a big pessimist. I had a lot of down moments about whether or not I'm going to finish my course. I just kept catching up. Yes, I fell short, but heck, I held through, and I've seen how much I can give, a sort of self-discovery. That, in itself, is an accomplishment greater than anything I've learned from college.

2006-04-20T13:08:00.000+08:00

I remember I made a letter. Actually three people made that letter. I wrote it down, a friend translated it, then I had another friend write it down again. I saw that letter two days ago. I think I forgot to give it or something. I couldn't read it (translated nga eh). I forgot what I wrote down in the first place. Sayang...

2006-04-15T21:29:00.000+08:00

Been recieving alot of text messages this past week (proof that people are as bored as I am). Alot of the messages were very umm... "bible-ish." Don't get me wrong, I appreciate the message, but those kind of text message won't suvive a single second in my inbox. But one text message (from a very dear friend) really got me laughing. It went like this...

"Like omgawd! may load n k ulet! grabeh na itech!-hapi holy week! Sa mga walang cable maburyo sana utak nyo sa kaboringan"

I just love my friends...

2006-04-12T19:07:00.000+08:00

I was really stressed out for the past three days. Since Monday, I have beed going to UST to clear my grades, transript, etc.. But today was a wonderful day. Ang saya lang... wla lang!

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YOUTUBE addict na ako. Pag walang magawa... manood ng YOUTUBE -my new motto!

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Was watching SCRUBS and GREY'S ANATOMY. di kp prin alam kung magmemed ako!

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Holy week nanaman... one word! boring... *yawns*

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Gusto ko mag tennis. I mean I want to learn how to play!!

shet... just read my post!! garbage.. i know!

2006-04-09T11:07:00.000+08:00

Just saw PINK's new video... new in a sense na ngayon ko lang sya nkita!! Anyways, she spoofed alot of artists, from paris hilton to jessica simpson... really funny... she's like the female version of eminem... usign other people to get attention!! pathetic really, but funny!

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The other day, I went to UST to get my clearance, only to find out that "hahaha... wala nang clearance ang 4th year" -mam beth. thanks ghala *sense the sarcasm*

2006-04-06T10:44:00.000+08:00

Looks at tagboard... *ponders* I'm confused... sira ba? or ako lang? LOL

2006-04-05T22:57:00.000+08:00

Its 11 pm and i'm here at hera's house blogging...

we just got home form megamall... watched "she's the man" (my second time) I lost the coin toss!!

am hungry again... need to eat something!

PIZZA... too expensive!! *thinks*

hera has a lot of complain bout my blog...

Dont do this... dont do that... no need to type that!!

cant complain from the HTML master...

anyways, were going to watch a movie again... "wedding date" I hope its good... fought charsa off from buying "big fish"!!

talo nanamn ako sa pustahan.. wala lang. really not my day today!

Somethings wrong with my blog... hera help!! wla nanamang space in between (pag sa browser ko)

MISS YOU

2006-04-02T00:15:00.000+08:00

I'm watching "The First Wives Club" right now on HBO...

I miss my mom...

I'm a big mama'a boy! get over it!

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You're brown, a credible, stable color that's reminiscent of fine wood, rich leather, and wistful melancholy. Most likely, you're a logical, practical person ruled more by your head than your heart. With your inquisitive mind and insatiable curiosity, you're probably a great problem solver. And you always gather all of the facts before coming to a timely, informed decision. Easily intrigued, you're constantly finding new ways to challenge your mind, whether it's by reading the newspaper, playing a trivia game, or composing a piece of music. Brown is an impartial, neutral color, which means you tend to see the difference between fact and opinion easily and are open to many points of view. Trustworthy and steady, you really are a brown at heart.

From tickle.com

2006-03-21T22:58:00.000+08:00

I was blog-hopping awhile ago, and I just re-read someone's old post... I still had the same reaction!! I just needed to be be reminded...

Funny how things end up when you keep them unresolved!!

Been receiving phone calls from old friends lately... feels goods! It distracts me.No txt needed

2006-03-14T22:56:00.000+08:00

I THOUGHT THAT WHEN I HAD NOTHING TO LOSE, I CAN RISK EVERYTHING... REDUNDANT I KNOW!! BUT IT KINDA MADE SENSE TO ME... UNTIL NOW!!

IN GOLF, IT TAKES A HOLE IN 1 TO GET AN EAGLE!

IN BOWLING, IT TAKES 2 TRIES TO KNOCK ALL THE PINS DOWN!

IN BASEBALL, IT TAKES 3 STRIKES TO GET A STRIKEOUT!

IN TENNIS, IT TAKES 4 POINTS TO GET A GAME!

IN BASKETBALL, IT TAKES 5 FOULS TO GET YOU OUT OF THE GAME!

IN MY OPINION, 6 IS A BIG NUMBER!! WAY TOO BIG!! 5 IS MORE THAN ENOUGH!!

*go figure*

2006-03-10T12:11:00.000+08:00

To my CLASSMATES:

First I thought I was VINDICTIVE...
Then I met JC, REN, and LOUANNE...
So I thought I’m NICE... (peace)
Then I met MARY!
So now I'm just plain CYNICAL...

Then I thought I was LOUD...
Then I met ALI...
So I thought I'm only OUTSPOKEN...
Then I met ALAN and CHIKA!!
So now I'm just plain OPINIONATED...

Then I thought I was SMART...
Then I met SHE, PHNAS, and JEN...
So I thought I'm NORMAL...
Then I met ______ !!
So now I know I have POTENTIAL...

Then I though I was ARTISTIC...
Then I met ORANGE and ANA...
So I thought I just had SKILLS...
Then I met ______!!
So now I know I'm very IMAGINATIVE...

Then I thought I was DEEP...
Then I met ARA and PAI...
So I thought I was really SUPERFICIAL...
Then I met _____!!
So now I know I'm just LIGHT-HEADED...

Then I thought I was TIMID...
Then I met JACQ...
So I thought I just have no PRIORITIES...
Then I met _____!!
Now I know I have DIRECTION!

To be continued... more to come!

2006-03-07T17:31:00.000+08:00

I was with LAURA yesterday... remember her??

this sem seemed so dull cuz we did'nt hear enough of laura! fortunately, she was my reporting partner in ENG 108, and I was reminded of how enthusiastic she was when it came to her reporting! the whole class was entertained... I was laughing!! her actions seemed to have filled a void I had the whole sem!

thanks laura!

2006-03-05T10:56:00.000+08:00

Most of the time, my actions are unintentional and unconscious... don't give me too much credit!!

but nevertheless, I am SORRY!

2006-03-01T20:43:00.000+08:00

QUESTION: How do you teach something to someone who doesn't want to learn?

ANSWER: You can't!!

The same concept apllies... if a person doesn't want help, don't give it! cuz in the long run, he/she must learn how to ask for it! Sympathy is a fleeting emotion.

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BLOG... so misunderstood!!

Used for things not intended to be used for... hay!!

2006-02-25T21:49:00.000+08:00

I (WE) hate being played stupid... I (WE) are just being quiet out of respect.

So stop it... its becoming really annoying!!

And over-doing it makes it really funny!!

2006-02-19T22:18:00.000+08:00

Lately I've limit myself to these one liner post that doesn't seem to justify my thoughts. But heck, I'm tired. Sleepless nights and eerie thoughts have all but killed my delight in writing. Funny how something I've thought to be innate can be so dependent on things I have no control of.

I've stopped rationalizing and justifying my actions. YOU should too. With a few days left till all of this is over, talking to oneself really doesn't help. Regret is something I'll be doing forever. Hahaha...
This is for everyone!!

2006-02-18T11:32:00.000+08:00

EVERYTHING I SAID
Cranberries

It makes me lonely,
It makes me very lonely,
When I see you here, waitin' on.

It makes me tired,
It makes me very tired,
And inside of me, lingers on.

But you have your heart,
Don't believe it,
And you ran outside, waiting on.

Everything I said,
Well I meant it,
And inside my head, holdin' on.

'Cause if I died tonight,
Would you hold my head?
Would you understand?

And if I lied in spite,
Would you still be here,
No, would you disappear?

Surely must be you,
Surely must be you,
But I don't make you lonely.

I'll get over you,
I'll get over you,
But I don't make you lonely.

2006-02-11T21:04:00.000+08:00

PRACTICUM and THESIS are almost finished.

I'm so happy and relieved!!

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Science week na... Its been a year na pala!!

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is EVIAN a mineral or distilled water?

a HILL, at its peak, is only 400 meters high?

how DENSE is water?

GO FIGURE!!
I KNOW... Don't worry, I won't tell!

2006-02-05T22:41:00.000+08:00

Our thesis is killing me right now... (note: ME)

Its harder for me, being the only SINGLE person in our group!

Note to my thesismates: be sensitive... hahaha... I'm just bitter and sad!

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I'm trying to enjoy the last few moment I have with my classmates. Too bad some of them dont share my enthusiasm...

its their loss!!

2006-01-29T10:09:00.000+08:00

What the hell is selfish love?

it makes me laugh... and think!

I can't understand it... haha...

too complicated!

I hope it's just a phase...

I'm trying to be deep. well actually just trying to sound deep. but in reality, I'm just shallow and superficial!!

2006-01-23T22:30:00.000+08:00

Just found out that the TEXTNONSTOP promo of globe will end this feb. 9!!

Ghala pano na?

Mamimimiss ko ang iyong walang kamatayang pagbati ng GOOD MORNING and GOOD EVENING!

I wanted to talk to you on the phone... But I don't like the fact that I have to text you first. Para bang nagpapaalam muna ako para kausapin ka lang sa phone!! hay...
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when everyone seems to be moving on with their lives, I am still stuck with the same old feeling I've had eversince... So stubborn!

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Ang hirap ng TRIGO... shet!!

2006-01-19T21:54:00.000+08:00

To NESS... just got the lyrics of this song. Got it from a friend. I'm still laughing! LOL...:P

Mahal kita Pero di mo lang alam
Hindi mo alAm kasi hindi mo naman ako tinitignan
Ayaw mo naman itanong sakin kasi baka nga naman hindi naman ikaw
At hindi ko rin naman sayo sasabIhin kasi ayoko pa sa ngayon na manligaw

Mahal kita Pero hindi nga lang halata
Hindi halata kasi walA naman akong ginagawa
Hindi ako kumikibo hindi ako nagsasalIta wala

Pero hindi ako torpe
Hindi ko lang talaga masabi sayo ng hArapan
Mahal kita pero dehins mo pa rin ramdam
Hindi mo ko titignan di rin kita tItgnan
Lagi mo lang akong pakikiramdaman lagi rin kitang pakikiramdaman
At araw araw tayong magdededmahan
Hanggang sa tayo ay magkabistuhan

Pero ngayong malapit nang matapos ang kanta ko
Nais kong magkaalaman nA
Nais kong ako na rin ang magsabi sayo ng harapan
Kasi alam kong doon dIn naman ang tuloy nyan
At dalawa din lang naman ang posibleng sagot dyan oo o hindi

Kaya eto na sasabihin ko na Para matapos na
At hindi na magka-tsismisan pa
Sasabihin ko na pAra wala nang problema
At para hindi na rIn kayong lahat nabibitin pa

hahaha... laughtrip sobra!

8-8-8-8-8-8-8-8-8-8-8-8-8-8-8

Had a very interesting day today... will write details when I have time!! Must study for SCL9 and Techwrite!! night...

2006-01-13T22:25:00.000+08:00

Backstreet boys concert sa philippines?!! hahaha... Iba na tlga pag laos na!

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Pink elephant reared it's ugly head...

I am reminded...*ouch*

2006-01-09T16:30:00.000+08:00

DEATH

Death has always been a very powerful influence for me. Often times, I try not to think of it (about it). The word itself or the slightest hint of it makes me puke (literally) the thought of someone dying or myself dying, triggers an emotion that I cannot really comprehend. It may be fear or just plain curiosity, but one thing is for sure, it is something I try not to understand. Because for me, death in itself, is a construct not meant to be understood only accepted.

2006-01-09T16:11:00.000+08:00

Reading between the lines is really not that hard... All you need is patience!
And courage to find out things that are best kept hidden from you! Believe me... Being discreet is not your forte! Now I am doubtful. I have to rethink my options!
A small hint is always enough...

To a friend:
ummm... have the courage to say things others are afraid to say *naman*!! but I do thank you for the the hints... it was well appreciated!

2006-01-07T23:52:00.000+08:00

My Baked Lasagna

I was about to eat some baked lasagna. Fresh from the oven and still piping hot, it would've scorched my tongue. So I decided to put it in the refrigerator to cool it down. But it was there too long, and when I took it out it was cold, hard, and almost frozen. And so I decided to put it in the oven to warm it up again. Unfortunately, it was in the oven far too long and when I took it out it was again too hot to eat. So I again decided to put it in the refrigerator. But as before, it came out too cold to eat. This continued for many times. The lasagna was either too hot or too cold to eat. But at last, when it was just right, the lasagna had become spoiled and was not fit to be eaten. "Nevermind", I said to myself. "I can always get another lasagna". And so I thought.

2006-01-06T21:07:00.000+08:00

In hindsight, the best thing I've learned from everything that had happened last year was...

there is no difference between expecting many small things instead of a few big things to happen... the disappointment one gets has the same intensity!

2006-01-04T22:07:00.000+08:00

**I need a calendar (wallet size)... haven't had one in years!**

2006-01-02T11:19:00.000+08:00

It pays to have chinese folks live right next to your house. Its like having your own personal fireworks show every new year...

I watched "AKO LEGAL WIFE 4" last night... t'was funny!!

2005-12-30T22:01:00.000+08:00

Fireworks. Old friends. Good food. And a hell of a lot of things to talk about. My night was complete.

2005-12-29T14:09:00.000+08:00

Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock. It never ends...

And so I ask, can boredom really kill?

2005-12-28T10:38:00.000+08:00

I didn't ask They shouldn't have told me At first I'd laugh, but now It's sinking in they've sold me Well baby I don't want to take advice from fools I'll just figure everything is cool Until I hear it from youIt gets hard The memory's faded Who gets what they say It's likely they're just jealous and jaded Well maybe I don't want to take advice from fools I'll just figure everything is cool Until I hear it from you Until I hear it from youI can't let it get me off Or break up my train of thought As far as I know, nothing's wrong Until I hear it from you Still thinking about not living without it Outside looking in Til we're talking about it, not stepping around it Maybe I don't want to take advice from fools I'll just figure everything is cool Until I hear it from you...

Got this song from a friend... thanks friend! haha...

In relation... the same friend plus an accomplice (si nenot at si...) dedicated a song to me... nevermind the song (wala ako nakitang lyrics sa net), bsta its from Rocksteddy... I heard it and I laughed hard!! Ganyan ang mga kaibigan... iniisipan ka ng kanta... haha

2005-12-27T10:24:00.000+08:00

A week later, boredom finally settles in. This means over-thinking is next. And depression will follow. What a way to start the new year.

I am so affected... its really pathetic... and funny!! well I wasn't the first! *winks*

2005-12-22T23:32:00.000+08:00

Christmas Party Pics

2005-12-22T22:22:00.000+08:00

How do we learn from other people's mistake? Or better yet, can we really? It is easy to see other people's mistake, but to learn from them is something a lot of people overlook. Some people say it's really easy, I say otherwise. Often times we see people commit mistakes that make us say to ourselves that we'd never do the same. But most often than not, we our forced to bite our tongue, as we find ourselves committing the same mistake we said we'd never do. How does this happen?

2005-12-14T22:00:00.000+08:00

In a cab, heading somewhere I didn't want to go, to meet people for reasons I didn'tknow, I suddenly had a moment. It was those "Why=am-I-doing-this-moments." weirdly enough, I couldn't answer my own question. Then I started thinking, then it came to me... This was not for me!!

2005-12-10T13:28:00.000+08:00

And I'm in so deep
You know I'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

Excerpt from a song!

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NMAT na...
Goodluck sa lahat!!

Final note: I don't feel like it's X-mas... I do feel it but for the wrong reasons!! hay :(

2005-12-03T21:58:00.000+08:00

You

You are the fellow that has to decide
Whether you'll do it or lose it aside
You are the fellow who makes up your mind
whether you'll lead or linger behind
Or just be contended to stay where you are
Take it or leave it. Here's something to do!
Just think it over...

It's all up to you!!

2005-11-27T10:05:00.000+08:00

I've listened to their opinion, and I know what to do... but I can't do it!! Sorry... not now!! It's too complicated.

Funny how I easily give advice, and yet can't listen to other people's!!

2005-11-22T19:21:00.000+08:00

Even though I am mentally tired, I must admit that I am having fun!! Doing stuff and actually being busy got me off my this habit of mine to over-think!! Keeping things light is really nice... hope this would last a while!!

I think I'm sick, literally!! I was supposed to do school-related stuff, but I opted to rest instead... it wasn't really a hard decision!! haha... I need a break... a long one!!

In another story, I just received my admission slip for my NMAT (National Medical Admissions Test). Its on December 11... I have less than three weeks to review!!

2005-11-13T11:34:00.000+08:00

In relation to what leah posted... I need stresstabs!! Ang time-consuming ng thesis!!

I dont know how to use myphone properly... and I'm too stuborn to ask!! *hay*

2005-11-05T21:45:00.000+08:00

I've lately discovered that sheer determination and fickle-mindedness can easily transform a "WANT" to a "NEED."

I just recently bought a new cell phone!haha

2005-11-02T12:35:00.000+08:00

So its really finally over!!

My parents have been separated for about 10 years, and a long time ago I've accepted the fact that we're never going to be a whole family again. Yes its sad, but its something I've gotten used to. A few hours ago I accepted a package from FEDEX, it contained the divorce papers my parents needs to sign.

Its really funny how after so many years, and even though this is something my family and I have talked about, the thought of my parents getting divorced still somewhat stings me. I've tried not thinking about it, but I know its something I have to get over with. All I need is time.

2005-10-30T17:24:00.000+08:00

A streak of light, deep and cold, captures you. And for a moment, a fleeting moment, you feel small, insignificant and weak, yet yearning. And then it was gone.

This was last december...

Now I ask you, when was the last time you saw a SHOOTING STAR?

2005-10-27T18:10:00.000+08:00

Hay, I'm tired and bored at the same time. I'm really stressed out, but I easily get bored when I'm not doing anything. Its really weird...

Anyways, finally we have progress in our thesis... We already have our first confirmation on a testing schedule. Its actually tomorrow (Friday)... I'm really relieved something's happening with our thesis... I know our sem break is not yet over, but I can proudly say that this is the most productive sem break I've ever had!!

Hay, hirap ng walang cell... walang ma-contact at di ma-contact!!

Saw my grades online... highest SPANISH (1.5), lowest EXP LEC (3)!! the rest... swimming in 2's

Also saw our schedule... tentative
MWF lang ang classes...
7-8....marriage
8-9....rorschach
9-10...ETAR
10-11..spanish 2
11-12..BREAK
12-1...PGC
1-2....Practicum (mondays only)

Hera, gawa mo ako ng bagong layout...please!!

2005-10-24T19:54:00.000+08:00

Things To Do!!!

Monday...
....thesis meeting (8 am)
....make endorsement letter signed by Dr. J
....get Dr. B to sign proposal letter
....go to Convergys Espana and talk to the HR manager

Tuesday
....thesis meeting (8 am)
....get clearance
....give endorsement and proposal letter to Convergys Espana
....go to the PSYCH lib (escolta)
....start chapter 2

Wednesday-Thursday
....thesis meeting (8 am)
....go to mall to buy ink, paper, envelope... etc
....sleepover at Alan's house... start printing tests!!
....finish chapter 2
....finish Log book

Friday
....FREE DAY!!! I wanna play BADMINTON!!....

*and these are the things I have to do... every member has their own respective tasks*

2005-10-21T14:24:00.000+08:00

Layout is becoming really dull... time to call hera!!

2005-10-19T22:08:00.000+08:00

I've been receiving a lot phone calls from my HS friends lately... Some of them were asking "When are we going out?" Normally I'm the one person who calls everyone, tries to get them (HS friends) all together and go out do something... that was then!! Nowadays, I have no control of my schedule! So I just answered "Next week... wait for my call." I didn't have the heart to tell them that I'll probably be too busy doing our thesis the whole sem break!!

This really sucks!

Anyway, been really bored... been sleeping the whole day... nothing to do... nothing to watch!!

To my classmates: Badminton on monday!!

2005-10-16T22:35:00.000+08:00

The Semester That Was

I don't really know if I'm happy that this sem is over. I can't holistically judge this sem. Too many things have happened... Things that I don't even wanna remember!

For starters, back in June, before the sem even started, I had mixed feelings on how to interact (bad term) with some of my classmates. I mean they're nice and all, but some of their opinion are just plain confusing sometimes even hurtful to me. And even though I show I am not affected, I really am. This feeling never really left me... Funny how one incident can cause you to question everything you thought that was there!

It didn't end there. Taking two back subjects really took it's toll on me. While a lot of my classmates complain how stressed they are because of our thesis and practicum, imagine taking it with experimental psych (lab and lec). God!! I actually almost cried after taking the final exams for both subjects. Nobody knows how stressed I was this sem, because I never really showed it nor did I complained. It would have been redundant if I did, because I know I couldn't really do anything about it! And the situation I was in was all my fault!

Compared to last sem, social interaction was on it's all time low. Barkada boundaries were not seen in class, but for someone like me (a floater) it is something I really felt. It was really hard for me to come up and talk to some of my classmates, even to those I considered my closest.

I really had a hard time keeping my cool this sem. Looking back, I do regret a lot of things I've said, not because I said something wrong, it was more like the timing... It was really bad. I usually think before I speak, but this sem, emotions that were pent up were damn to hard to control... Sorry!

In retrospect, This sem will be remembered fondly for all the annoying, stressful and akward incidents... and you know what, I take it back, I'm glad this is over!! And to think we only have 1 sem left!!

aaarrrrhhhhh... em sleepy!! Continue this next time...

2005-10-12T22:07:00.000+08:00

Got this from a friend...

Question: If you were in the AMAZING RACE who would want to race with? Maximium is be with 3 people...

I was thinking of 3 people I would want to race with... but sadly I could not come up with a solution... this is how I answered it:

If I wanted to win, I would want to be with:
1. Tiff = one word "bully"
2. Alan = when I'm with this guy... social facilitation happens!!
3. Pai = Muse... *joke* she travels a lot... her experience will come in handy!

If I wanted to have fun, I would want to be with:
1. Jelo = c jelo pa, no need to explain!!
2. Esdi = again, no need to explain!
3. Chika = we need some progesterone...

If wanted to have a cultural experience, I would want to be with:
1. Ness = she'll appreciate anything!
2. Mary = her patience amuses me!
3. Ara = *Amen*

If I wanted to have fun "party fun", I would want to be with:
1. Trish = masamang bisyo sya eh!
2. Kyang = party gurl to' (pag di tayo nakatingin)
3. Lele = dating number 1 customer sa eastwood!

if I wanted to have a laugh trip, I would want to be with:
1. Orange = isang hawak lang sa leeg nya... nakaka-alis ng stress!
2. Jen = isang smile lang...ok na!
3. leah = lahat ng tao pagtatawanan namin!

If I wanted to relax, I would want to be with:
1. Ren = di ko nararamdaman yung presence nya...
2. Rezi = always "speechless"
3. Phnas = if you see how she walks... you'll understand!

BUT, if I wanted things to be memorable, I would want to be with:
1. Laura = her prescence is enough!
2. Louanne = ewan ko ba... bsta!
3. Ali = gets nyo na yon!

And, If I really wanted things to be interesting, I would want to be with:
1. Esdi 2. Adriel 3. GAV!! hahaha..